Happy Birthday, Dad!

 Today is my dad's birthday.  I am feeling sentimental today as I look through old family photos. I so wish he were still here.  It bothers me to no end that I didn't get to tell him all the things that he did that made an impact on me and I didn't get to say good-bye.  It is tough to lose a parent that you thought would always be there whenever you needed them.  It's beyond tough.  There are no words really. He did get to live a full and eventful life but, I feel like I didn't get all the time I wanted with him.  I am feeling selfish. 

This is a random snapshot of my dad walking me down the aisle. 

 This is hilarious because this is an oldie of my dad with an old girlfriend!! lol!  My mom always says that!  Wasn't he handsome though!??!  And it's so funny to me that he has a pack of cigarettes rolled up in his shirt sleeve.  My dad smoked up until he was 25 years old and then he quit cold turkey when he joined the church. It always blew my mind that he smoked because I just could never imagine it! 

 My mom and dad with Mike, David, Clayton, and Ginny!  This is so cute!  I see my dad in my brothers and I see my kids in my dad and brothers too!  Crazy!  Jeremy's family swear that Liam looks like Jeremy and my family swears that Liam looks like me and my brothers.  I am pretty sure the boat just tipped to my side! lol!  He is definitely a Trapp!  I haven't seen any pics of Jeremy that look anything close the the similarities with Liam that I found in looking through old Trapp photos.  I think I am finally starting to see us in our  kids!  lol! It's about time! Also, my brother Clay, looks like Asher and even Cedric a little bit!  And I see a little bit of Cullen in David and Clay.  Wow!  I need to put some more of these up!! lol!

 My mom and Dad on their wedding day!

 Mom and Dad 50 years later!!

 My dad when he was a small boy.  See Liam a lot there too!  

Wow!  

 My Dad

January 14, 1938- April 25, 2007

 My mom and dad with Tristan and Cedric.  I wish I had gotten more pics like this taken.  Darn it.  

The pic below is out in Utah for Matt and Kathy's wedding.  My mom and Dad and me with some of Mike's kids(Garrett, Teryn, and Kyle).

This is the day of my dad's funeral.  All my brothers with my mom.  This made me tear up too.  Next month will be one year that Russ has been missing.  I miss him.  He was such a good big brother to me and it's weird that I cannot talk to him.  It's like people don't even care but, I know it's because they don't understand.  No one gets things until they go through it themselves.  It's like when my dad died, there were people who never said one word to me about it, like it never even happened.  It's heartless and rude but, I think they may just feel awkward.  I don't know.

I came across this and just had to post.  This is my sister Ginny's kids when they were little.  Sidney is the youngest and she is in the corner.  Everyone always said she looked like me but, yeah, check those curls out!! An exact replica of Liam's curls when he was that age.  Also, that is what my hair looked like only blonde!  Cute!  And I just noticed that Justine (far left) looks like Eden....same color of hair and everything!! I need to look at old pics more often! haha!

 Some snapshots of another one of my dad's birthdays at Sue and Todd's old house in Carthage.  That is Nick with him above.  My dad was such a great guy.  Kinda and gentle.  I know people think I am exaggerating when I say that he never yelled but, I am dead serious.  I wish I could be more like him.  I want to have his patience and kindness.  Even to people that weren't exactly kind to him he was ALWAYS kind back to them.  

 Happy Birthday, Dad!  I can't wait to see you again someday!