Beware

The Bad:
I am in an uber depressing mood today so steer clear of reading this blog if you don't want to hear about it.  I don't care if you do or don't.  I have felt out of whack for a few days now.  Father's Day puts me in the slumps every year.  Ugh.  I really dislike reading all the Father's Day posts on facebook.  I really am mad that I cannot go visit my Dad's grave as often as I used to either.  Ugh, I know it doesn't really matter in the scheme of things but, it does to me.   And I am sick and tired of people acting like my feelings are not justified or validated but, everyone else's feelings are.  I am really annoyed with like, every person I know.  Sheesh.  That can't be good.
Tomorrow is my brother Russ's birthday.  And I find myself thinking about him more and more.  This all doesn't add up.  It is not a simple case of him taking off.  It's not.  Something awful happened.  I am super duper emotional today and cannot stop crying.  I can't seem to talk either.  I think this may be the quietest I have ever been in my  life, haha!  My brain is running crazy with all the bad things that may have happened to him.  Bad things happen all the time, to real people. Just ask me, I know.
When we were building the swing set I told Jeremy that I didn't like that slide, it looked like it would bust any second.  And it did.  Today.  While the kids are slip sliding down it.  Oy.  My life.  This is it.

 The Good:
One good thing to happen today is that Eden decided all on her own to go potty.  She is amazing and I love her.  I don't know if she actually peed or not but, Jeremy and I praised her like she did!  She loved it and clapped along with a huge smile on her face! 
Another awesome thing is that Asher started not only doing more things for himself but, doing things for other people too!  He has been so helpful and courteous today!