My Thoughts

Be aware male readers.....following post is related to female junk.....read at your own risk!

I can't take this dang Paragard anymore.  Paragard is the copper IUD that I have implanted inside me as a form of birth control.  It is hormone free and said to be 98% effective although I think that number is a little skewed.  So far (I have had it in two years this week) the birth control effectiveness is great....as in, I am not, nor have I been pregnant since getting it put in. LOL!  The rest of it is for the birds!  One of the side effects of Paragard is a longer and heavier period.  It's REALLY bad.  And they are more frequent now, like every 2 and a half or 3 weeks.  Also, I have noticed that I get intense pain when ovulating now too.  I used to never even know anything was going on ever. Basically, I have barely one week (usually more like five days) that I am normal, not in pain, not completely insane,etc.  It sucks bad! I cannot take this anymore.  We have to figure out another solution.  So that is my mission today....find another option.  Or have more babies.  Which doesn't mesh with the new goals and direction that Jeremy and I have spent the last few weeks plotting and planning out.  Ugh, why did I have to be a girl!?!?!? :)  For reals, I'm glad I am a girl (I would make a terrible boy, eww) but, we sure do get our fair share of crappy stuff. 

We took Asher to the doctor on Friday.  Actually, Jeremy took him and Tristan (another headache appointment).  Asher has been struggling with focus, hyperactivity, impulsivity, etc. for a while now.  The school has been on us for a couple of years saying he had ADHD but, we both felt like labeling a four year old and shoving medicine down his throat isn't a good idea.  We still feel that way.  But, Asher is 6 now and needs to be able to focus and be able to absorb what is being taught to him.  I guess while at the appointment, Asher was in full effect!  Meaning that he wouldn't sit down, ran in circles around the doctor, shouted from one of the building to the other, etc.  As I type this, I think it sounds like any kid his age.  But, when you are there with him, you can see the difference.  Anyway, Dr. Smith prescribed him the lowest dose of Adderoll to start with.  That stuff scares me to my core.  It is an amphetamine.  Basically it is speed or meth.  It is very habit forming and a high abuse rate.  Not that I think Asher is going to abuse it but still.   It goes against everything I believe in.  But, I had a friend tell me once that sometimes the kids want to have medicine so that they can focus and be able to behave like they need to.  That may be true.  I don't know.  I love that boy so much, it breaks my heart to put him on medicine.  I don't want him to be a different person, I love HIM.  This morning we crushed up a pill and gave it to him with chocolate milk.  He asked what it was for and I told him that it will help him be calm and able to focus better at school.  He took it without complaint and that makes me sad too.  I don't want him to think he needs to take a pill to be "normal".  UGH, this is so hard.  We have been praying about what to do and we both feel that we at least need to take a shot with the meds.  We will see how it goes.

Cedric is wanting to quit band after we spent $150 to sign him up and agreed to purchase a $1500 saxophone!  So annoying.  I love that Cedric want to try lots of things and has many varying interests but he starts and quits everything.  He did it with karate, wrestling, baseball, band, basketball (went to one practice and told the coach he needed to quit because he has asthma!), and now he wants us to sign him up for Lego Robotics Club at the school.  Oh well, at least he is trying things and having fun.  I think Lego Robotics might be something he would actually stick to though.  I may even volunteer to help with it after school.

I wish people weren't so darn stupid and rude and annoying.  I won't go into this one too much because I'm sure some of the people that annoy me are probably going to read this but, what can I say, it's on my mind, and it's my blog.  So there.  Anyway, I just don't know why I keep trying with some people.  I really don't.  But, I guess I will anyway.  Keep trying I mean.  It can only make me a better person.  *sigh*  But, it is hard work.  Why do some people make it so hard to like them???  

Cullen is doing SUPER DUPER with the potty training thing for #1.  We have to figure something out for getting him to go #2 in the toilet though.  I have been trying to give him time and let him warm up to the idea just like I did with the potty training.
side note: Do we call #2 training poopey training?
And he will wear pants over his underwear now instead of just running around in his undies!

Also, more Kelley Family new.  Jeremy's brother, Tyson and his wife, Vanessa are having another baby!!  This will be their third!  Due sometime in July-ish.  Exciting news!

The Holiday season is coming up.  I hope I am ready for it.  We already had the Kelley family christmas meeting setting up dates, plans, and gift ideas.  And the Trapp Thanksgiving better not be ruined this year!!! I cannot take it, I really can't.  No one else can seem to do Thanksgiving right.  I have many ideas and plans this year.  I think I need to print out my holiday control journal just like last year.  That was  a good thing.  I think I will do it now.