Thursday, November 15, 2012

Tired Thoughts

I want my hubby home today.  I feel all depressed, achy, and stupid.  He can help snap me out of my depression much of the time. I love that he can come home to me whenever I/he wants or needs to.  He doesn't have to ask permission or have a cut in his pay.  I love, love, love our flexibility.  It is also awesome when scheduling doctor's appointments (or any appointments) like I am today.  Tristan has to go to Springfield now for his headaches to see a pediatric neurologist and I know we can go whenever they want us to because we get to make out own schedule.  It is a blessing and something I am extremely grateful for. 
We have decided to get the paragard out.  In fact Jeremy texted me this morning and said "get that thing out!"  LOL!  I think he is sick of me being crazy, achy, annoyed, in pain, and lazy.  We just don't know what to do after that.  We even talked another baby.  But, I am being selfish and don't want to.  Next year, I am opening a bakery.  All the kids will be in school and I want to do some things for myself.  Also, I think the age gap would be too big.  I do not want large age gaps.  I was five years after the rest of my family and they are all close.  They share stories and confide in one another.  Not me.  If you think back, as a child, age was even more important.  Remember how crazy it was to have a boyfriend a couple of grades older than you!?!?  Remember how you didn't want to associate with people in the grades below you??? I do.  Susan and I were closest in age and while we were friendly sometimes, mostly she was annoyed with me because I was the annoying little sister.  Now, as adults we all talk and get along.  I don't know.  Anyway, I'm talking too much.
I need to get out of the house.  Maybe I will get dressed and stop moping around in my sleepless stupor.  Hobby Lobby??? Groceries?  I think so.  Now, let's see how quick I can get these kids and myself geared up to go. 

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