Today is not a good day at all. For a multitude of reasons. I hate when I get in this funk and then take it out on the kids or Jeremy. Right now I am sitting here hating the fact that my milk is gone. I have been crying my eyes out and now they are so blurry that I can't see straight. I ordered some more of the More Milk Plus tincture and have been taking my fenugreek. The problem is, I cannot pump right now. My hands are pretty much useless so I can't really hold my dang boob to actually feed her either. Failure. I am boiling water right now to sterilize the pump to try to pump all day today. I am sure I will have to take a vicodin after this though from the pain in my arms. My neck has had a HUGE crick in it all freaking weekend and I can't turn my head either. Or lay on it. My foot feels like it is broken and I am limping around like a gimp. What the freaking hell is going on with my damn body!?!?!?!? For reals. What the hell!?!? I don't understand. And who is suffering from it besides me? Vivianne. I am so annoyed with myself that I just don't know what to do. UGH. And the milk I get from Sarah keeps leaking into the dang water that I am thawing it in and wastes the whole stinking bag. I am so frustrated. *sigh* I just wanna go back to bed.
I feel like we are never going to have the time to get rid of our other house either. We are just going to struggle with two payments forever. It sucks.
And another thing...Fall came too quickly and the kids don't have any clothes. And all of that falls onto my shoulders to figure out what the crap they can wear in the meantime. Liam had to go to school today in shorts and a sweatshirt. Pretty sure I look like Mom of the Year.
Of course it is rainy and grey today. To match my mood I guess. My house is a mess and I don't want to move to clean it. And the spiders....don't even get me started on the spiders. It wouldn't be so annoying except that we have PAID someone to get rid of the spiders and...the spiders are STILL FLIPPING HERE....in fact, they are worse. FML.
I could go on and on about a zillion different things. But, I won't anymore. I'm just done.
3 comments:
I know its not Ur milk. But do u need some from me. You doing Ur best. Don't be so hard on yourself. You have six other kids. Heck its hard getting the to pump with just one kid.
Are u sure its leaking? Joanne said sometimes it looks watery but just needs mixed. Or is it actually going into the water
I will try call u. If I font get a hold of you call me.
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