Made It Through The Night

I survived the night (barely).  I'm tired but, what's new?  I camped out on the couch.  I had all the kids downstairs throughout the night.  Many shushes and be quiets.  Tossing and turning on my couch that isn't nearly as comfortable as I remember.  Oh well.  We did it!!  I realized last night that I can't live without my husband, like ever.  Especially if I'm at home.  I may do better when I am at a hotel or something.  Next time they go camping, I'm checking into a hotel.  Then I won't feel all weird and empty inside I think.
This morning I am ordering potty training books and dvd's.  Cullen does not respond to ANYTHING!  I am seeking all avenues of help.  Potty training is my kryptonite.  My failure in parenting skills.  Don't you think that they would be thrilled to go potty on a toilet!?!?  Don't you think they would look at the whole process as "Awesome, no more crap stuck to my butt!"?  Also, don't you think I would know what I am doing by now?? No, not at all.  I really thought Cullen would just come around one day and be like you know what, I'm gonna pee in that toilet over there...after all I will be four years old in like a week.  Well, that hasn't happened.