Small Meltdown

I'm having small moments of pure panic today.  Jeremy and the two oldest boys are planning on heading off to a boys camp-out this weekend.  By themselves.  Can't they camp in the backyard???  No, real camping is required here.  Agh.  I don't do well without a man in the house.  Lately it seems everyone I know has their husbands gone a lot.  My friend Denae has an 11month old and about 7-8 months pregnant with another little boy.  Her husband has been deployed to Afghanistan and they are hoping he is home in time for the birth.  Agh!  There is nothing in the world that would make it okay for me to go into labor and delivery without my husband by my side.  You can't get that moment back.  It's gone forever.  She is alone in Arizona with none of her family close by.  I feel really badly for her and wish I could be there to help.....but, I'm still not her husband.  And I feel badly for him too....can you imagine missing the birth of your child!?!?!?   I would seriously make him quit, lol.  For reals though.  My SIL is in the same boat right now.  Her hubby works on the railroad.  She is due any second with their second baby.  I would literally be curled up in a ball somewhere, hyperventilating.  Kinda like I am now.  But, she seems to handle it pretty well.  I don't know how.  I think she's a much more patient person than me, lol!  Good job, Trisha!  And Denae too!! 
Jeremy and the boys are planning on being gone two nights.  I won't sleep.  I really won't.  I will check all the doors and windows 3,000 times and jump at every noise.  But, me and the other kids are gonna have some fun, I hope.  I have to run to the store this morning for groceries for their camp-out.  I am gonna try to pack them lots of goodies.  I really do want them to have fun.  Really, I do.  Everything will be fine here.  At least I'm not having a baby.  What is there to worry about!?1?  Nothing. Yep, nothing.  I will keep telling myself that all day. 
Once Jeremy had to go to Chicago for an overnight.....by himself.  We both stayed up and tossed and turned all night long.  Him in Chicago.  Me in Nauvoo.  It's just how we work.  Neither one of us like it.  But.....CAMPING IS FUN!! (right?)  I will be fine as long as I keep busy.