I'm pretty sure that someone is trying to play some cruel joke on me. I feel as if my life isn't quite the way I want it be. Whenever I get my hopes up, I feel like they are always crushed and I'm not quite sure why I even bother thinking something good will happen. Okay, pity party for me. So when Jeremy gets home from playing basketball at church I will try to have him scan the ultrasound pics in so you can all get a good look at our new baby boy. That's right, I said boy. Number 5. In a row. No girls. Ever. I've cried all my tears out, I think, until tomorrow at least. I don't feel bad about the baby itself. He looks super cute in there and he was moving around like a madman in there during the ultrasound! I'm sure he is going to be somebody special and unique and full of good qualities. I just really thought that this one was my girl. But, I don't want him to think I'm mad at him so I will not talk out loud about it if at all possible any more. I am happy that he is healthy and that is that. Obviously Heavenly Father has plans for me and my children and sends them to me when I need them. So stay tuned for the pics.
On another note: I have changed the settings so that anyone can leave a comment, not just registered users. So, comment away.
Here is a really good quote that Shonnie sent me earlier this week. I think it makes sense right now for me.
Think about your particular assignment at this time in your life. It may be to get an education, it may be to rear children in righteousness, it may be to be a grandparent, it may be care for and relieve the suffering of someone you love, it may be to do a job in the most excellent way possible, it may be to support someone who has a difficult assignment of their own. Our assignments are varied and they change from time to time. Don't take them lightly. Give them your full heart and energy. Do them with enthusiasm. Do whatever you have to do with your whole heart and soul. to do less than this will leave you with an empty feeling.
-Marjorie Pay Hinkley
3 comments:
Aw, I was really hoping you'd get your girl this time around, too. Sorry about that. But I know you'll love this little guy just as much as your other boys. No doubt there.
Did you film the verbal tirade when you found out? I was kinda lookin forward to that. ;)
Sounds like you have accepted the inevitable. This little boy will be just as special as all the rest. Wonder who this one will look like? I was singing to Cedric last night in the car the little nursery rhyme of snip and snails and puppy dog tails, that's what little boys are made of. He said no Grandma, they are made of star dust, my teacher said so!
Colista, I feel for you, because I know what is like to know that Heavenly Father has a little girl for you (or boy, in my case), and the feelings of uncertainty and frustration waiting for your intuitions to be verified. Your fifth son will be as wonderful as all the others. I know you know that! You are one of the most unique people I have ever met, and I know your family must be just as unique. Sometime later, you should read "Russel M. Nelson Father Surgeon Apostle" by Spencer Condie. Chapter 7 talks about how his wife, Dantzel, had a similar experience. (They had ten kids)
Love, Cori Hildreth
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