In Everything Give Thanks #7

#7 Today I am forever grateful for this baby growing inside me.  We had known that there was a chance that I could get pregnant but, didn't take it quite as seriously as maybe we should have.  And we got pregnant.....rather miraculously I might add ;)...if you catch my drift.  I was okay but rather annoyed at the timing of it all.  It has been a hard thing to accept for me.  Just this last week I was coming around and starting to get excited.  Today I went to my regular doctor's appointment with Dr. Jones.  I lost weight, which I thought was weird, being so hungry and all.  And we tried to listen to the baby's heartbeat but, after a long time, couldn't hear one.  Dr. Jones said I could come back in a week and if there wasn't a heartbeat then, then we would go have an ultrasound.  Immediately my anxiety kicked in.  I told him that I am a worrier and he asked me if tomorrow would make me feel better.  I said yes and he accommodated. I think I really like him! :)  Then when scheduling at the desk, they asked me if I could come in today at 2:30! Yes!  So, I went home for an hour where Jeremy and I worried and fretted and prayed about the baby.  I felt horrible, like I had been mean to the baby or made it feel unwelcome.  I know, it's all probably in my head but, that is how I felt.  Jeremy had to stay home with Eden for the ultrasound.  She was sleeping (finally!) and in a cranky mood anyhow and we knew she wouldn't sit for the ultrasound in that state of mind.  Thankfully, Trisha offered to go with me to the ultrasound and got to Carthage uber quick!!  We had to wait for a bit to get in (with a full bladder--gah!!) but, pretty much as soon as the tech started the ultrasound she found the heartbeat at 160 beats per minute!!!  I had an immediate wave of relief go through my whole body!  I was fearing the worst, as I tend to do, and I am forever thankful that this was just a scare!!  I need to be thankful for every blessing that is sent my way even when it wasn't what I had planned.  I know that this baby is coming to us for a reason.  And this is just what I needed to make me see things from a different perspective!  We got to see the baby wiggle around a bit and see the heart beat too.  I'm glad that Trisha could be there with me either way.  I would have felt weird being there alone if something had been wrong.  So, long story but, I am not going to take things for granted.  I will appreciate what is sent to me and what I have.  Thank you to my Heavenly Father for letting this be a good thing for us!!