Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Just A Rant...Yes, I am on one today :)

I used to be a people person.  Not so much anymore.  I have been burned TOO many times!!  And before you judge, realize that no one knows all the crap I have been through.  You think you know but, you have no idea.  That is why I am so thankful for my husband.  He is the ONLY person that really knows me.  And quite frankly I'd like to keep it that way.  I feel like every time I open up to anyone, even slightly, I end up regretting it.  Sometimes I tell people things and then they take that information and tell other people or make stupid judgements about me or my family.  UGH.  So, if you ever want to know why I am stand-offish or whatever....now you know why.  People suck.  End of story. 

I hope to tell my kids of the goodness of people and the world. I know that there is good in it.  I have experienced my fair share of that as well.  But, I also want them to be street savvy.  I want them to have their guard up.  I want them to have a healthy amount of fear of things.  Maybe fear isn't the right word.  I want them to question everything......and be wary of things with a certain amount of curiosity....just enough so that if they want to proceed with something they will do it carefully.  And with thought and prayer. 

Trust is something that is not easily earned.  And once you break it, it will never be the same.  I may forgive but I do not forget.  Anything.  And it is not just one sided.  We all have our fair share of guilt.  Learn from it and move on.  Do better next time. 

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